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I've made it an entire week in Philly. West Philly, actually. Heard the north is pretty bad so probably won't be heading there. Ate out most of the first week. Gotta stop that, too expensive if I still have 3 or so weeks to live here. Went to the supermarket yesterday and got some produce (cherries, nectarines, and mangoes cause the mangoes were 49c each and I loves them). Also picked up some pepsi max and hotdogs and cheez-it's. This should last for a while. I still have 3 boxes of cookies left from a couple days ago; hoping to make them last for the rest of the week at least.

SEPTA is pretty neat. I've even been riding it on my own. I really wanna ride the trains though :o. Never been on a real train (that I can remember anyway). I also helped close at a KFC so Katie wouldn't be stuck there till 2am again. And been caught in the rain a couple times. It's nice here. Very warm.

Had a dream about Reeses peanut butter cups. And another dream last night that seemed to be based on F.E.A.R 2. It was set in india or china or something and me and my squad were going through these hallways. And then we discovered that the walls were weak so we pushed some over and got into a dusty area with crickets on the floor. There were beds and it was really dark but my team had flashlights. There was something ominous about it but I can't remember what it was.

It's so different here. But in many ways it's the same. In Lancaster, we had our own place. And it was a similar, older building. Philly is so much huger than Lancaster though. Even getting Canadian currency converted to American was an adventure. The people at the bank apparently never saw Canadian currency before so they had to look it up in a book to make sure it was legit D: . And then after that, we were on 52 street and Katie hustled a pair of awesome black label jean shorts from 40 to 25bux. They have a skull on the back with a dagger through the eye and a snake, it's so cool!

Might be heading down to Lancaster when we can get a chance to. We also want to visit NYC.
We went to Logan square (which, btw, is where the statue of William Penn looks like it has a pen0r) where they used to do all the hangings. And we visited
LO
VE park. We also went Larry's and got a belly filler cheese steak and it was amazing, and we went to Coco's which is actually a really nice bar.
I dunno what else to write, so I guess that's it for now.

Philadelphia maneto!

I've made it an entire week in Philly. West Philly, actually. Heard the north is pretty bad so probably won't be heading there. Ate out most of the first week. Gotta stop that, too expensive if I still have 3 or so weeks to live here. Went to the supermarket yesterday and got some produce (cherries, nectarines, and mangoes cause the mangoes were 49c each and I loves them). Also picked up some pepsi max and hotdogs and cheez-it's. This should last for a while. I still have 3 boxes of cookies left from a couple days ago; hoping to make them last for the rest of the week at least.

SEPTA is pretty neat. I've even been riding it on my own. I really wanna ride the trains though :o. Never been on a real train (that I can remember anyway). I also helped close at a KFC so Katie wouldn't be stuck there till 2am again. And been caught in the rain a couple times. It's nice here. Very warm.

Had a dream about Reeses peanut butter cups. And another dream last night that seemed to be based on F.E.A.R 2. It was set in india or china or something and me and my squad were going through these hallways. And then we discovered that the walls were weak so we pushed some over and got into a dusty area with crickets on the floor. There were beds and it was really dark but my team had flashlights. There was something ominous about it but I can't remember what it was.

It's so different here. But in many ways it's the same. In Lancaster, we had our own place. And it was a similar, older building. Philly is so much huger than Lancaster though. Even getting Canadian currency converted to American was an adventure. The people at the bank apparently never saw Canadian currency before so they had to look it up in a book to make sure it was legit D: . And then after that, we were on 52 street and Katie hustled a pair of awesome black label jean shorts from 40 to 25bux. They have a skull on the back with a dagger through the eye and a snake, it's so cool!

Might be heading down to Lancaster when we can get a chance to. We also want to visit NYC.
We went to Logan square (which, btw, is where the statue of William Penn looks like it has a pen0r) where they used to do all the hangings. And we visited
LO
VE park. We also went Larry's and got a belly filler cheese steak and it was amazing, and we went to Coco's which is actually a really nice bar.
I dunno what else to write, so I guess that's it for now.

Philadelphia maneto!

I've made it an entire week in Philly. West Philly, actually. Heard the north is pretty bad so probably won't be heading there. Ate out most of the first week. Gotta stop that, too expensive if I still have 3 or so weeks to live here. Went to the supermarket yesterday and got some produce (cherries, nectarines, and mangoes cause the mangoes were 49c each and I loves them). Also picked up some pepsi max and hotdogs and cheez-it's. This should last for a while. I still have 3 boxes of cookies left from a couple days ago; hoping to make them last for the rest of the week at least.

SEPTA is pretty neat. I've even been riding it on my own. I really wanna ride the trains though :o. Never been on a real train (that I can remember anyway). I also helped close at a KFC so Katie wouldn't be stuck there till 2am again. And been caught in the rain a couple times. It's nice here. Very warm.

Had a dream about Reeses peanut butter cups. And another dream last night that seemed to be based on F.E.A.R 2. It was set in india or china or something and me and my squad were going through these hallways. And then we discovered that the walls were weak so we pushed some over and got into a dusty area with crickets on the floor. There were beds and it was really dark but my team had flashlights. There was something ominous about it but I can't remember what it was.

It's so different here. But in many ways it's the same. In Lancaster, we had our own place. And it was a similar, older building. Philly is so much huger than Lancaster though. Even getting Canadian currency converted to American was an adventure. The people at the bank apparently never saw Canadian currency before so they had to look it up in a book to make sure it was legit D: . And then after that, we were on 52 street and Katie hustled a pair of awesome black label jean shorts from 40 to 25bux. They have a skull on the back with a dagger through the eye and a snake, it's so cool!

Might be heading down to Lancaster when we can get a chance to. We also want to visit NYC.
We went to Logan square (which, btw, is where the statue of William Penn looks like it has a pen0r) where they used to do all the hangings. And we visited
LO
VE park. We also went Larry's and got a belly filler cheese steak and it was amazing, and we went to Coco's which is actually a really nice bar.
I dunno what else to write, so I guess that's it for now.

Philadelphia maneto!

I've made it an entire week in Philly. West Philly, actually. Heard the north is pretty bad so probably won't be heading there. Ate out most of the first week. Gotta stop that, too expensive if I still have 3 or so weeks to live here. Went to the supermarket yesterday and got some produce (cherries, nectarines, and mangoes cause the mangoes were 49c each and I loves them). Also picked up some pepsi max and hotdogs and cheez-it's. This should last for a while. I still have 3 boxes of cookies left from a couple days ago; hoping to make them last for the rest of the week at least.

SEPTA is pretty neat. I've even been riding it on my own. I really wanna ride the trains though :o. Never been on a real train (that I can remember anyway). I also helped close at a KFC so Katie wouldn't be stuck there till 2am again. And been caught in the rain a couple times. It's nice here. Very warm.

Had a dream about Reeses peanut butter cups. And another dream last night that seemed to be based on F.E.A.R 2. It was set in india or china or something and me and my squad were going through these hallways. And then we discovered that the walls were weak so we pushed some over and got into a dusty area with crickets on the floor. There were beds and it was really dark but my team had flashlights. There was something ominous about it but I can't remember what it was.

It's so different here. But in many ways it's the same. In Lancaster, we had our own place. And it was a similar, older building. Philly is so much huger than Lancaster though. Even getting Canadian currency converted to American was an adventure. The people at the bank apparently never saw Canadian currency before so they had to look it up in a book to make sure it was legit D: . And then after that, we were on 52 street and Katie hustled a pair of awesome black label jean shorts from 40 to 25bux. They have a skull on the back with a dagger through the eye and a snake, it's so cool!

Might be heading down to Lancaster when we can get a chance to. We also want to visit NYC.
We went to Logan square (which, btw, is where the statue of William Penn looks like it has a pen0r) where they used to do all the hangings. And we visited
LO
VE park. We also went Larry's and got a belly filler cheese steak and it was amazing, and we went to Coco's which is actually a really nice bar.
I dunno what else to write, so I guess that's it for now.

Philadelphia maneto!

I've made it an entire week in Philly. West Philly, actually. Heard the north is pretty bad so probably won't be heading there. Ate out most of the first week. Gotta stop that, too expensive if I still have 3 or so weeks to live here. Went to the supermarket yesterday and got some produce (cherries, nectarines, and mangoes cause the mangoes were 49c each and I loves them). Also picked up some pepsi max and hotdogs and cheez-it's. This should last for a while. I still have 3 boxes of cookies left from a couple days ago; hoping to make them last for the rest of the week at least.

SEPTA is pretty neat. I've even been riding it on my own. I really wanna ride the trains though :o. Never been on a real train (that I can remember anyway). I also helped close at a KFC so Katie wouldn't be stuck there till 2am again. And been caught in the rain a couple times. It's nice here. Very warm.

Had a dream about Reeses peanut butter cups. And another dream last night that seemed to be based on F.E.A.R 2. It was set in india or china or something and me and my squad were going through these hallways. And then we discovered that the walls were weak so we pushed some over and got into a dusty area with crickets on the floor. There were beds and it was really dark but my team had flashlights. There was something ominous about it but I can't remember what it was.

It's so different here. But in many ways it's the same. In Lancaster, we had our own place. And it was a similar, older building. Philly is so much huger than Lancaster though. Even getting Canadian currency converted to American was an adventure. The people at the bank apparently never saw Canadian currency before so they had to look it up in a book to make sure it was legit D: . And then after that, we were on 52 street and Katie hustled a pair of awesome black label jean shorts from 40 to 25bux. They have a skull on the back with a dagger through the eye and a snake, it's so cool!

Might be heading down to Lancaster when we can get a chance to. We also want to visit NYC.
We went to Logan square (which, btw, is where the statue of William Penn looks like it has a pen0r) where they used to do all the hangings. And we visited
LO
VE park. We also went Larry's and got a belly filler cheese steak and it was amazing, and we went to Coco's which is actually a really nice bar.
I dunno what else to write, so I guess that's it for now.

Philadelphia maneto!

I've made it an entire week in Philly. West Philly, actually. Heard the north is pretty bad so probably won't be heading there. Ate out most of the first week. Gotta stop that, too expensive if I still have 3 or so weeks to live here. Went to the supermarket yesterday and got some produce (cherries, nectarines, and mangoes cause the mangoes were 49c each and I loves them). Also picked up some pepsi max and hotdogs and cheez-it's. This should last for a while. I still have 3 boxes of cookies left from a couple days ago; hoping to make them last for the rest of the week at least.

SEPTA is pretty neat. I've even been riding it on my own. I really wanna ride the trains though :o. Never been on a real train (that I can remember anyway). I also helped close at a KFC so Katie wouldn't be stuck there till 2am again. And been caught in the rain a couple times. It's nice here. Very warm.

Had a dream about Reeses peanut butter cups. And another dream last night that seemed to be based on F.E.A.R 2. It was set in india or china or something and me and my squad were going through these hallways. And then we discovered that the walls were weak so we pushed some over and got into a dusty area with crickets on the floor. There were beds and it was really dark but my team had flashlights. There was something ominous about it but I can't remember what it was.

It's so different here. But in many ways it's the same. In Lancaster, we had our own place. And it was a similar, older building. Philly is so much huger than Lancaster though. Even getting Canadian currency converted to American was an adventure. The people at the bank apparently never saw Canadian currency before so they had to look it up in a book to make sure it was legit D: . And then after that, we were on 52 street and Katie hustled a pair of awesome black label jean shorts from 40 to 25bux. They have a skull on the back with a dagger through the eye and a snake, it's so cool!

Might be heading down to Lancaster when we can get a chance to. We also want to visit NYC.
We went to Logan square (which, btw, is where the statue of William Penn looks like it has a pen0r) where they used to do all the hangings. And we visited
LO
VE park. We also went Larry's and got a belly filler cheese steak and it was amazing, and we went to Coco's which is actually a really nice bar.
I dunno what else to write, so I guess that's it for now.

Philadelphia maneto!

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

It's really annoying when people like to pretend that humans are better than animals. Humans ARE animals. Sure we might be a lot smarter than most of the other animals and we have things like philosophy, but deep down inside, we are animals. And I'll just say right now, in case you think I'm gonna get into some PETA bullshit, I'm not. PETA are a bunch of morons and should be shot on sight, really. Cause they're fucking crazy and hypocritical and stupid. The stupid part is most of the reason they should die.
Anyway, if it wasn't clear enough, from SCIENCE, that people are animals, the behavior of the human race is a pretty good indicator.
At work, they trample through the produce department like a heard of fat ugly cattle. Go through the displays like a pig goes through his trough.
[the only redeeming quality about any of them is some of them are pretty sexy. There are some definite MILFs at my store]
Another example is the behavior of people in new Orleans during the Katrina incident.
Disgusting
Fucking
Filthy
Animals.

The reason I'm bringing this up, is that I can see complete societal collapse approaching. Maybe not for a couple years, but it is coming. Martial law will probably be imposed. Perhaps years before the collapse, or perhaps there will be some rebellion or staged terrorist attacks (it's happened before) or global nuclear warfare as countries fight over diminishing resources like water and land and oil and trees. In my opinion, any attack on freedom (such as martial law) is just as bad, if not worse than societal collapse.
I did a lot of thinking at work today along these lines. Not just total societal collapse either, but also if a natural disaster or something happened.
Some people would behave normal and try not to panic. They would probably die first if they don't escape. Most people will panic and try to escape. Some, however, (and these are the ones who will be labeled criminals) will try to survive. They will cast off their shackles of 'society' and reveal their true nature: that of the animal.
[at this point I'd also like to note that I think gun control is utterly retarded because criminals will obtain guns anyway. All gun control does is prevent an average person from defending themselves against a criminal brandishing a gun]

The reason I was thinking about these things is that I've been thinking about maybe having a family some day. A very very small family. (Yes, I know the world is overpopulated right now, BUT if certain things happen, we will need all the people we can get).
If I have a family, I plan on defending them. By any means necessary. I will not hesitate to kill in defense of my life or my family. This is how it is in nature, kill or be killed.
Now I'm not saying I want to kill. I try to live my life in accordance to PLUR. Peace, Love, Unity, Respect. And if I am treated in that way, I will reciprocate. But, break into my house in the middle of the night and expect a couple bullets headed your way. Your brain will make a nice painting for my wall. Basically, I intend on having me and my family survive at any cost.

Survival at the expense of freedom though? That's a really tough question. And I hope I never have to make that choice. I guess currently I am surviving while some of my freedoms are limited. But would I fight an oppressive totalitarian regime? Currently I do not acknowledge the right of the government to tell me what I can or cannot put in my body. What I can or cannot say. What sexual preference I should have. Those things are not the business of the government. So although I may not have the freedoms, I still do what I want. And this, I'm sure, will someday be a cause of conflict.

I doubt I'll ever be the strongest. I doubt I'll ever be the best shot. I doubt I'll ever be the greatest assembly programmer of embedded micros. I doubt I'll ever be the best hacker.
But I can aspire to be.
I can aspire to be something more than the ignorant masses who sit their obese asses on their couches watching tv and collecting checks from the government.
I have aspirations to be greater than I am, to be better than I ever could be.

Ok, so there's two main things I wanted to mention in this entry: some recent computer problems and some recent dreams.

The power adapter for my favorite laptop decided to start being flaky a couple weeks ago. I dismissed the problem thinking it was simply a thermal shutdown issue (well, it was behaving weirdly and then the laptops battery was not being detected and then the adapter wasn't providing power and then the computer shutdown. Once I got it back up (by resetting the PMU) I checked the cable and discovered the actual transformer part was buried under stuff. Hence why I tidied my room a little bit. Anyway, I unplugged it and let it cool down and then things were ok.)

On the 15th, the adapter failed again. It wasn't much warmer than ambient temperature though. I used the battery to boot the computer into a series of diagnostic tests to ensure nothing on the logic board was at fault. All the internal hardware tested ok. So then I looked to the adapter itself. Since it didn't seem to be a thermal issue this time and I didn't smell anything burning and there was no smoke from inside, I thought maybe there was a loose connection somewhere so I poked around at it. I managed to get it working again (confirming that it was indeed a loose connection), and booted into the OS to run FSCK. However, I had gone back in time!!
Tiger decided it was December 31, 1969! Also, the Internet didn't work.
[Actually, interestingly enough, when the laptop shutdown, I also experienced some network issues. Somehow, my router locked up and the Internet to the house seemed to die as well. I checked from multiple computers, then attempted to isolate the problem by power-cycling each network device. And eventually I got the families side of the network up. Mine took a little longer. It's an old router but usually it's incredibly stable. I still don't know if the two events are related or not, but it was interesting that they occurred almost simultaneously. I won't dismiss the possibility of a security breach, since no security is impenetrable. But it is highly unlikely.]
Anyway, for some reason, Tiger also decided to enable ipv6 and then locked down her firewall so she couldn't connect to my network. Since I was fighting against time (the remaining amount of battery left) I wasn't able to dig through the logs as much as I would have liked.
I ordered a replacement adapter since even though I could probably fix the old one (and I probably will), I needed something more reliable. It got here today and I'm currently ensuring file system integrity (although I doubt there will be any problems at all, and even if there are, I have VERY current backups :)). I'll probably be using Tiger again before the end of the day. (The laptop I'm on right now is quite a bit faster than her and has a much larger screen, but I just love her more. It's a good thing I have backup hardware though, this is why I keep so many computers around. (Well, one of the reasons anyway))

Anyway, now for the dreams. They aren't really as crazy as some of the dreams I have.

The night before last night, I dreamed of a FedEx truck. I forget most of the details. But I do remember I dreamed that my power adapter arrived. And I was so excited and happy. And then I woke up.

Last night I dreamed of an airplane (again >_< ). There was something to do with my being Tom from Tom and jerry and there was something about mice and them being dipped in Caesar dressing. And being hidden in my pants or something. Anyway, as proof of what a fatty I am, apparently after taking off in the plane (which was scary cause I was driving) I apparently landed at a McDonald's and took the entire flight to have hamburgers.

And on the 12, I had this dream (wrote it in a text file so I wouldn't forget, lol):
The earliest part I can remember is a walk through the woods with some furries or wolves or something. There is a female (human) one wearing blue scrubs and I think her friend is wearing scrubs too.
I keep finding strawberries that are already cut and I eat them.
Then we are in what appears to be a wing of a hospital, but over time it becomes the college.
I think Simon lets them sit in one of our classes. I think they are in vet technology or something... maybe MRI or dental assistant...
Anyway, she chooses to sit next to me on a couch and we are both under the blanket. There is some conversation and she mentions something about me doing her doggy style.
She asks me if I remember the last time I was in her dorm. I remember it, I was in engineering at the time and me and some other guys were over there and she made us soup.
At some point we end up in my house, the two girls having taken over Jeff's room. I think their hair is either brown or black. They are both really cute. Anyway, there is a sense of danger at this point and I have to check on them to make sure they are ok. They are still asleep. In the basement was some sort of anonymous enemy so we have to try to escape.
Things get all anime and some person has us all wrapped and tied up in something. Then it explodes off it's skin and it seems to be some weird insect like thing. And I don't remember how but somehow we kill it because we are outside of that area, walking home. And something else happens but I can't remember what.
[the really interesting thing about that dream is the fact that I can fabricate memories mid dream]

So basically, I wanted to rant about freedom and the lack of it and mention how the world is fucked up.  But I figured many of you wouldn't care and so for the very few that do, I've added some interesting links.  

http://www.infowars.net/articles/january2009/190109Faber.htm

    Years ago I recognized my kinship with all living things, and I made up my mind that I was not one bit better than the meanest on the earth. I said then and I say now, that while there is a lower class, I am in it; while there is a criminal element, I am of it; while there is a soul in prison, I am not free.    --Eugene V. Debs

    They who would give up an essential liberty for temporary security, deserve neither liberty or security    --Benjamin Franklin

    When liberty is taken away by force it can be restored by force. When it is relinquished voluntarily by default it can never be recovered.    --Dorothy Thompson

    None are so hopelessly enslaved as those who falsely believe they are free.  --Goethe

    For those who stubbornly seek freedom, there can be no more urgent task than to come to understand the mechanisms and practices of indoctrination. These are easy to perceive in the totalitarian societies, much less so in the system of 'brainwashing under freedom' to which we are subjected and which all too often we sere as willing or unwitting instruments."    --Noam Chomsky

    If we do not believe in freedom of speech for those we despise we do not believe in it at all.    --Noam Chomsky

    If ye love wealth greater than liberty, the tranquility of servitude greater than the animating contest for freedom, go home from us in peace. We seek not your counsel, nor your arms. Crouch down and lick the hand that feeds you; and may posterity forget that ye were our countrymen.    --Samuel Adams

http://www.prisonplanet.com/israel-recruits-army-of-bloggers-to-troll-anti-war-websites.html
Israel really needs to be held accountable for their war crimes.  They feel that the deaths of children are totally justified.  Frankly, they have no right to be in that area of the world anyway.  But that is another rant for another time.
(see also:
    http://www.reuters.com/article/latestCrisis/idUSLH286481
    http://www.reuters.com/article/latestCrisis/idUSLJ166444
    http://www.google.com/hostednews/afp/article/ALeqM5gLCYgTPBsvOMPGYdnLPvL40D0X_Q
)

This is really disturbing.  And I urge my fellow Canadians to be prepared to fight for freedom if necessary:
http://www.globalresearch.ca/index.php?context=va&aid=8323

I like the take on Lincoln towards the end of this article:
http://www.infowars.net/articles/january2009/190109Messiah.htm

Feed your brain (interesting things to read):
http://archive.newsmax.com/archives/articles/2003/11/20/185048.shtml
http://www.prisonplanet.com/obamas-civil-defense-program-resembles-domestic-draft.html

http://www.prisonplanet.com/fisa-%E2%80%98compromise%E2%80%99-completes-transformation-of-us-into-full-police-state.html

http://www.prisonplanet.com/washington-post-20000-more-us-troops-to-be-deployed-for-domestic-security.html

And, ultimately, perhaps the most important link of all:
http://online.wsj.com/article/SB123146363567166677.html

(and here is an opposing viewpoint on the above article which I read because I like to remain open to differing opinions: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/ellis-weiner/on-atlas-shrugged-as-a-gu_b_157295.html I still love Atlas Shrugged though and objectivism is still awesome)

And omfg you guys have no idea how frustrating it is to try to explain something to someone who refuses to listen.  Who has a closed mind.  And... she just... can't see things from my viewpoint... she doesn't even try.  

Umm... and now I lost my train of thought, but hopefully I'll come up with some proper blog posts soon.  I hope to write one on the influence of the internet and media and bloggers on popular opinion.