3 posts tagged “love”
So much has happened since my last entry.
I wasn't going to write this today, but a friend asked me to so I decided I'd give it a try.
First though, as followup to my last journal, it wasn't IRC or gmail that was increasing my phone bill. It's actually just that annoying access fee thing for 911 and stuff.
School went... well... basically how I expected it to. I failed two of my classes, one of which was calculus. (Technically I failed another class but I got credit in it once I showed my university transcript). Programming... well, I sort of didn't do the assignments. I aced the exams, but because I hadn't done the assignments, I didn't pass.
I met with my academic advisor and we went over my possibilities. And I'll be taking a reduced course load over the next few semesters.
During exam week, I met someone amazing. She cooks really good steak. My parents got so pissed off that I stayed over at her house. I hate how they restrict my freedom. They won't let me stay over with her... it sucks cause I was only going to cuddle her as we slept. I found out how much I love holding someone in my arms while I sleep. Cuddling is very awesome.
She is also the only person, as far as I know, that I can be with and not need to be on the internet while I'm with her. The first few times I went to her place I brought my laptop but I didn't bother opening it so I don't bring it these days. Also, I've been told I'm very talented at lovemaking (yay! atleast I'm naturally good at something. XD ). (Apparently, my fingers are incredibly skilled too! :O I'm very proud)
Now that I found out about school stuff, I'll be taking extra hours at work, so I may have a weird schedule at times.
Had a wisdom tooth pulled last monday. My last one gets pulled this upcoming monday. Hung out with my friend Kuna for most of the week. One day we went to the West Edmonton Mall. They are filming a movie there which is kind of neat. It's the biggest mall in the world and it is really awesome. Of course, neither of us did any shopping (and until I get more hours at work, I can't afford much shopping) but we looked at all kinds of stores and had a great time.
On friday, we walked around the city (I also took her to a restaurant called death by chocolate... it was soooooo good) and then went to some hiking trails in a forest. It was very pretty and I really enjoyed exploring. We had lots of fun. And I took tons of pics.
This is really what I've needed. To get my ass off the internet and interact with real people. Well... not just any people... just her. And I can hardly wait till I get to see her next. She's shown me parts of the city I never even knew existed. She is so incredibly wonderful. I'm really glad I met her.
err... I know there is TONS of stuff I forgot to mention. But maybe later, when I remember, I'll add it.
I have either got allergies or a cold. Either way, I am stuffed up. But hopefully I'll be less stuffed up soon.
Also, my server makes me happy. I did a tiny bit more code on it (really simplistic) but I'm happy about the uptime.
$ uptime
10:54PM up 414 days, 7:19, 5 users, load averages: 0.00, 0.00, 0.00
Now for a teensy bit of feelings:
.longing.
As I lay here in bed, alone
I miss her.
I miss her warmth,
her scent.
I miss her warm lips
pressed against mine.
I miss the way her black hair
brushes across my face.
I miss gazing into her deep brown eyes,
losing myself in their beautiful depths.
I miss the way she burrows into me,
snuggling up close,
laying her head on my chest.
I miss how it feels to hold her close,
to caress her soft, delicate skin.
I miss her warm breath,
as it caresses my neck.
I miss holding her while she sleeps.
Feburary 15th, 2007
Mood: Energetic/excited to be alive
Weather:
Not bad, actually!
It is hovering around 0c at the moment and is nice and sunny.
Scripting:
Just created possibly the workflow I'll use most on this computer (yay for lazyness!). It will autoresize images for me and this is good cause I need smaller images for uploading. Now, I just need to do a bit of camwhoring :3
Ya, so liek this automator thingy... he's liek this tinsy d00d who lives in ur computer. He's a robot but also a slave!
Be his friend plz.
Oh! also, hi Steve!!
Blogging:
Launched my new blogging style yesterday.
Hope you all like it.
School:
oops, slept in and missed my first class.
Next week is reading week. Hell yeah!
Feelings:
Well, I feel full of love and quite loved at the moment. I'm feeling creative and artistic, but I'm sure that feeling will pass :P
I also feel like traveling. I feel like visiting some friends in the USA, then traveling to Europe for a while. At the moment though, I don't have any travel planned.
V-day:
Yesterday was valentines day. I wanted to do something for someone, to show her I love her, to make her happy. Unfortunately, I suck and so I couldn't come up with anything worthy. Next time though.
K, guys. The bus is almost there. I'm gonna pack up and post this as soon as I have signal.
with much love,
-niku
Thursday, February 8th, 2007.
Mood: blank, apathetic, numb
School:
Got my math midterm back. I did better than I should have, considering I didn't study and I hadn't payed any attention to any classes this semester. It was all from memory from when I was in engineering. My mark was above 60% (I'd have done better, but I got lost in the basement looking for the class so I lost about 10 minutes.)
Life:
I dunno, it's kinda odd. I haven't really been here lately. I've been here, but not _here_, you know? I haven't had much to talk about lately, nor have I created anything at all. It sucks because this always seems to happen. I'll get interested in something and then I'll become bored with it. This happened with drawing and web coding and writing stories. Most recently, I started getting into tracking (making music from samples, kinda like midi but better), and I was excited, but...
I guess it is sort of like writers block or something. Maybe a symptom of depression?
Programming:
Started on my biggest code thing yet.
It is still a pretty small project, but it is the biggest I've done (and it spans multiple files too).
I've been wondering how I should handle version tracking though. Any suggestions are welcome. (cause I'm working on this on different computers) PLZ ADVISE.
Networking:
I completed the first stage of my network rebuild the other day. I wish my switch was gigabit though. I figured out that I should use the 100mbps uplink port to connect to the router :D. I also learned how poorly my network was set up in the first place. Now that I have new knowledge, I can work on improving it. Of course, my server is currently not accessible from outside my network. But Pi figured out my problem with it and my mac! I was using a bad port :( (the one OSX uses for mDNS). He also helped me fix the code so that links work better. These are things I'll know to check for in the future.
I think it is getting pretty close to the point where I format EVERYTHING and rebuild the entire network from scratch. My filesystem is absolute shit. Duplicate files, no organization, arg! It makes backing up stuff to be a pain in the ass (I still do though, but I want to make it easier for myself because I am lazy). (And trying to FIND a file... good luck with that). I've been wanting to add a fileserver with raid for a while, and I think I will once I have the money. I also want to get my server to the point where I have some redundancy and can do hosting for people. (Probably have a pair of servers and using the freebsd jail system). Of course, I need to get bigger upload, but yeah, some day. Oh, also, anyone know of any GPL software that can manage SNMP?
I know it kinda seems overkill for a network that is essentially the network in my room, but I like playing with these things, I like learning computer and network things. One of my systems probably needs to be replaced pretty soon. I suspect that when it's northbridge fan died, the chip got slightly damaged. This might explain the memory errors I had been encountering.
Wow, this entry is getting huge. For someone who had nothing to say, I sure said a lot. Thanks to anyone who read this all.
Oh! before I forget, send me love plz:
And now, cause I luff you all so much, more stuff about me (PS: I stole it from Kiwi):
A - AVAILABLE: fgsfds
B - BIRTHDAY: Jan 5th
C - CRUSHING: yep
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: French Vanilla Cappuccino
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: hmmm... Cori, Dani, Mel, and Laura are pretty easy to talk to. Although I rarely get to talk to them.
F - FAVORITE BAND: Either 'The Paper Chase' or 'Freezepop'. Perhaps both.
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: I DUNNO :( Either would be nice.
H - HOMETOWN: Edmonton
I - INSTRUMENT: ummm... I'm musically challenged. I do fancy the guitar and piano though. I was singing along with music last night while I coded.
J - JUGGLE: Sorry, I am unable to.
K - KILLED SOMEONE: Not yet.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: I do not remember.
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Hmm... I do like mint milkshakes a lot. (Rootbeer ones are awesome though)
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 2.
O - ONE WISH: To be with the ones I love.
P - PERSON WHO CALLED YOU: Think that would be Laura
Q - QUACK?: wut
R - REASON TO SMILE: Love
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Love Inc. - Broken Bones
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: Not sure. 6:15 am, maybe? (I wouldn't really consider myself awake though)
U - UNDERWATER OR OVER: Over. I am not good at the swimming, and I prefer to not drown on most occasions.
V - VEGETABLE YOU HATE: WHAT! HATE VEGETABLES!? THIS IS BLASPHEMY! I'LL HAVE YOU KNOW I WORK WITH VEGETABLES AND THEY ARE QUITE GOOD. ASDFHJKL!!!!!!
W - WORST HABIT: Being shy, :( not taking opportunities when I can, not thinking before I act.
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Well, I had X-rays that indicated I had broken my collar bone and it healed before I even knew. And I've had the dental X-rays.
Y - YOUR LAST CANDY: WHAT! I DO NOT EAT CANDY I HAVE TO WATCH MY GIRLISH FIGURE!
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: I'm the one in January, you know? The one that looks like a goat or something. Oh, right, Capricorn. I think.
