6 posts tagged “music”
"The rumors of my death have been greatly exaggerated" --Mark Twain
Sorry I haven't written for a while. I lost my motivation and then I had nothing to say. Literally.
Nothing.
At all.
It sucked.
I hate how I get inspired to do things I don't have the skills for. I want to create music. I want to create art and writings that will touch people.
Yesterday, the weather decided to hate. It was pouring rain so I was on the bus, soaked. Earlier it had been 6 degrees Celsius and so I was dressed for the better weather. Then the rain turned to snow and I had a headache. So anyway, I was feeling miserable and glitching. So I decided to listen to music. And then it was insane. Open eye visuals. I wasn't on anything, but I was seeing stuff. And... I was inspired by a song by BT to make an animation to it. And I had an entire story board done up in my head. It was mostly muted sepia tones, and consisted primarily of warfare. I just keep remembering this soldier running toward the viewer, then jumping as a shell goes off behind him. My visuals shifted to an ariel view of a circuit board and the sepia tone was gone. Blue crackles of electricity coursed through it.
So apparently I'm unable to escape electronics class, even when I am on the bus.
I can't escape work either. Last night I dreamt. Two separate dreams actually. One was odd because instead of being in it... I was watching... which made sense actually since the dream was an episode of Futurama. I may tell you all that one later, I'm not sure. But the other dream was about work. I was scheduled for one hour which was odd. And I was wearing pajamas. And the manager talked to me about that. Both managers were there. The back room was huge and full of shiny new equipment. The fish department had a new employee who actually worked. Those stupid dairy guys were messing with our new equipment and I yelled at them. There was a blue nintendo Wii logo on the wall. And one of the things I had to bring in was 'octal potatoes'. It was odd. Oh, I also had my laptop bag there and the strap broke.
ARGGGGGGGGGGG.... http://www.behringer.com/BCD2000/index.cfm?lang=ENG I WANT. PLZ PLZ PLZ. MUST HAVE. Anyone know of similar/cheaper alternatives (this one is over $200CDN).
MUST BE PATIENT... OMFG... JUST WAIT FOR THAT BONUS... ;_;
Gonna blow my bonus on a subwoofer and I dunno. But definitely need a subwoofer or I will die from bass withdrawal.
Apparently, either IRC on my phone or gmail is still costing money. Not much because the data transfer with either is incredibly low. Seems the only thing that costs nothing is the text messaging. Oh well.
Date: March 6th, 2007
Mood: craving glowsticks and your warm embrace
Again, just cause it's important:
PS: Anyone with mac experience out there?
I need wireless with better range than the stock airport card in this iBook G4 12".
Preferably USB if possible and capable of all the fun stuff ;) (packet capturing, packet injection, etc.). It needs to work with mac OSX tiger. And it needs really good range... or be able to be easily modified for long range. Please let me know. You can email me at nikuramon (at) gmail (dot) com. Thanks in advance.
I wanna go to a rave. I want to get good at liquid dancing and popping.
You and me.
On the dance floor.
The music pulses and the lights strobe.
Both of us, moving in time to the music, grinding against eachother.
Hot, sweaty.
Our hearts pounding like the bass.
We kiss and I taste your sweat, feel your heat.
Lasers play across your stunningly beautiful face.
We embrace, still grinding, pulsing with the music.
Kissing, licking, hugging, lost in the music
Lost in the beat
Just us.
Nothing else matters.
Both of us
In the moment.
In the darkness light by strobes, lasers and glowsticks
And suddenly we are one person
moving in perfect time to the beat
In the roar of the music and the crowd
(yeah, I read a really hot rave fic and then while listening to music and drinking coffee, I came up with that)
February 26th, 2007
Mood: bored, missing you,
Smelling: diesel fuel
Reading week
Well, that was definitely one of my most unproductive weeks ever. It was also incredibly boring and lonely. Oh well, maybe next time. Goodness knows, she deserves some time off.
I did get a chance to lay around and do nothing though. So I'm not as tense as I was, although that is sure to change, as I think I missed the submission date on one of my code projects and I haven't started the other yet.
Sunrise
While I was waiting for my bus this morning, the sun was positioned just so that the sky was orange and pink. I shot a few pictures and it looks like they turned out ok, but I was about 6 or 7 minutes too early. And I couldn't get a good shot from the bus.
Weather
It was pretty cold waiting for the bus this morning. It needs to be nice and spring and flowers plz. Plz plz plz. oPlz.
Server
I updated my site a little bit. It isn't much better, but it is up.
Hair
My hilights are standing up well. They don't seem to have faded much if at all yet.
Being positive
lawl
Ok, so I'm not the most positive person. I have a tendency to focus on the bad things. (as someone keeps reminding me.) But her telling me that I'm doing that is really good and important because I don't usually notice myself doing it. (and I can't correct it if I don't realize I'm doing it.)
A lot of you sent me messages and chatted with me. Thanks. You've all helped me.
Music
I can't stand silence. It makes me feel lonely. Initially, my many computer fans were comforting, but after years of hearing them, and their unchanging tone, I unconsciously filter them out. I listened to a lot of last.fm radio last week. Even listening to it as I fell asleep. It was how I prevented myself from slipping into a huge depression... it didn't make me feel good, but it took the edge off the loneliness.
Ahhh, I'll be downtown soon. I think I'll take the bus from the mall to NAIT.
...
I'm at NAIT now.
Hey, anyone from Edmonton or area reading this blog?
Umm...
I was gonna post this a lot sooner, but then stuff happened and yeah, didn't get around to it.
Thursday:
Thursdays exams went well, even the math one. I remembered a lot of the calculus things from when I was in engineering. The networking exam after lunch was a breeze. That evening, I discovered I had high blood pressure which could partially explain my headaches and nosebleeds. My heartrate was really fast too. Perhaps, if I get some time, I'll have a doctor check.
Friday:
This day was hell. My head was pounding and I ached all over. I didn't want to get up and almost was unable to. My limbs felt so heavy.
The first exam was brutal. But I figured out bits of it.
Then I went to the mall for lunch and then saw the pets at the petstore. And I looked at these puppies. And one of them was crying. I wanted to pet him so badly but I couldn't. So I looked at chinchillas. They were so cute. And my parents won't let me have any more pets :(. So I got a siberian huskies calendar and they are sooooooo adorable.
Then I had to write my Digital Fundamentals exam. It didn't go well at all. I tried to remember the bits I payed attention to but... my head hurt so bad and I felt like puking. I wanted to get out of there. I panicked. I did maybe half of the test and of that half, I guessed on most of it.
Saturday:
Went out for a bit, then slept most of the day and all night.
Sunday:
Laid around, slept some. Did nothing I can remember.
Monday, tuesday:
See sunday.
Wednesday, thursday:
I had to work. It is very busy because Christmas.
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Now:
http://www.last.fm/user/nikuramon/ I'm at last.fm now. They actually have my kind of music there.
Got my marks, mostly passed, lol.
Math: C-
Soldering: A+
Basic Electricity: D+
Digital Fundamentals: F
C++ programming 1: A-
Career overview: pass
Open System Interconnection: B
I'm really surprised I passed electricity, especially since I didn't hand in most of the labs or assignments. I knew I was going to fail digital fundamentals. Laziness brought me down in programming and OSI.
Awww, my cat is sprawled on the bed, right next to me.
I took a bunch of pics the other day but only uploaded a few because of laziness.
I have to head to work pretty soon.
Thanks everyone who has been supporting me and keeping me mostly sane.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQ7wQ83ieJQ
...I can't stop watching it. There is something almost hypnotic about that girl.
If someone can tell me why I find it so hot, I'd appreciate it. And links to more dancing like that, plz.
This entry has to be short because I have classes right away. Also, I have a midterm this afternoon. I don't think I studied enough for it. I haven't been sleeping enough lately either, but such is life.
OMFG she is hot! (I'm watching the high rez version as I write this)
I was thinking of doing a video blog. I have no clue why, but I might do it anyway.
Damn, class. Gotta go, more later.
