3 posts tagged “work”

Date: March 8th, 2007
Mood: mad at myself, tired, oddly optimistic

And my phone just crashed three times in a row.  I think the application is corrupt.  
Even though I don't have money to spend, I end up spending it anyway and this is why credit cards are bad and also wtf, why do I have to be an impulse shopper?
I'm hoping that I get my $1000 bonus soon, but it isn't likely.  Even once I've got 1000 hours, it will still take another 200 hours or so for them to process it.  Why would I need all this money anyway?  Well, life is expensive.  Especially when you suck at not spending money.  All those morning coffees, snacks when I'm low on blood sugar, etc really adds up.  And repairing my aging computer equipment.  But also I plan on getting a subwoofer some time soon.  And that will probably be $175 atleast.  And I want to upgrade my iBook.  It came with a 40GB HDD but that is kind of small.  I'd like to stick a bigger drive in there.  (And I can do that install myself, lol, even on a mac.)  So one solution is to work more hours, although that is not really the best idea, since the more nights I work, the less time for homework and the less sleep I get.  I only made it to one class today because I slept in because I was so tired.  I still am tired.

In much worse news, however, when I went to book off the 17th, I found they had already scheduled me.  So I either skip work somehow, or I go late to the rave.

This one guy on my bus today was the leader of materials management of our health system in the region and he looked kinda cool.  This girl though... wow.  she had the most amazing tattoo on her arm.  Highly detailed and Egyptian.  It had one of those cats and a lady behind it.

I've been getting to talk to people lately, and I'm feeling somewhat motivated.  And I know I'm good enough to teach myself the programming stuff I missed.  Hopefully I'll remain motivated enough to finish everything.  Well, with all the new music I got yesterday, I'm sure I'll be able to.  It is good coding music.  But arggggg, I NEED a sub.  I'm in the sort of mood I get in when I actually like sitting at my desk and logging into a bunch of computers and doing ten billion things at once.  I haven't felt like this for quite a while now, and I hope it lasts.  (note, as soon as I sit down to do some work, this mood will, quite likely, vanish).  I should do my math homework but I think I will focus on C++ only cause I have a mid-term on that on monday.

Outside was really nice so I wasn't able to remain in a bad mood.  But, if I don't find my sunglasses, my eyes are going to die and fall out.  omfg so bright.

Although, I do feel like ranting a little.  (but I haven't researched ways of FORCING it to do what I want so there may be workarounds.)
I have an iPod.  I'm a little pissed off at the limitations -designed- into it.
I've also used a minidisc player and I wasn't 100% happy with it's software either, but it wasn't as bad.  The minidisc player had amazing battery life and quality, in both sound and construction.  I've no complaints with the sound from my iPod.  But why the hell do I have to use it with a computer?  Why can't I rip CDs to it directly?  Why can't I use it with multiple computers?  My iBooks hard disk drive is 40GB.  My iPod is 80GB.  If I want to fill it, and I use it with my mac, I can't fit enough music on my drive to do it.  And maybe I want to load some music from one of my PCs.  I think know why they did this.  DRM.  Digital restrictions management.  
I'm sick and tired of companies treating all of us like criminals.  I'm pretty sure that the license of the iPod says apple can put whatever they want on it and ultimately owns it more than I do.  Similar with my PSP.  They intentionally make it so you can't write your own code for it unless you refuse to upgrade the firmware and if you don't upgrade it, then you can't play the newer games.  When did we lose ownership of things we have legitimately purchased?  What's the point of buying something if you don't own it?
The built in iCal is nice though.

(lol, wrote yesterday but forgot to post it.  yay backdating!)

Date: March 7th, 2007
Mood: wanna dance, excited, bored

OH MANCHII/SNEBBIT/TOM YOU LOVABLE ROGUE YOU!

I was telling him about this rave I want to go to and as soon as he saw AK 1200 was playing he told me I had to go.  Now, I'd never heard of this guy so I searched for some of his tracks, (thx internet).  I stuck them on my iPod lastnight and didn't get to listen to them till I was on the bus this morning.
Needless to say, I'm totally addicted.  
Drum n bass.  Oontz.

I approached my parents about going to the rave. (Since I live in their house and it's only courteous to do so).  And they were against it, however I'm going regardless.  Lol, I think I was invited to the strippers for the same night but I'd rather go to the rave, personally.  I mean, I have the internet, what use have I for strippers? XD

I'm sitting almost exactly where I was when I wrote my journal yesterday.  Because I don't go to english (because I am dropping it one of these days) classes don't start until later today.  But I was up earlier than I needed to be.  So I took a bus into the city.  Went to the mall.  The lineup for coffee was intimidating so I decided to walk around the city.  Lots of people on the street were asking for change but I don't carry change cause I only use electronic money 99.9% of the time.  I just wandered around, listlessly.  Not caring where I went.  I'm not even sure what determined my path.  But it was a pleasant walk and it was between -1C and 4C so it felt so good.  Oh, and I snapped another building picture or two.

My taste in music has grown and changed so much over the past few years.  When I was a lot younger, I was so into the 80's, 90's and pop music... (not the good kind of pop, the embarrassing kind).  Then I got into metal and rock.  I got a midi keyboard and tried to learn how to play but lost interest after about a year.
A year or two ago, a friend who is an artist and musician got me into chiptunes and reintroduced me to 80's music.  Around the same time, I started listening to Midnight Snacks.  Yes, that W.T. Snacks.  His internet radio show introduced me to genres that I had never thought to look into.  This was where I developed my love of glitch.  I also was watching CSI as much as I could and really liked the music they used.  About half a year after this, a friend introduced me to indie music, a la the Paper Chase and an invite to oink.  I love the Paper Chase.  Now with last.fm, I've had a much easier time finding music I like and then finding music similar to it, and I've been especially into rave, trance, electronic, dance and techno lately.
"This is my melody and it's just a raver's fantasy.
Cause I know if you´re in love with me tonight,
we're ravin' through the night." - Raver's Fantasy, by Tune Up

It seems one of my coworkers quit.  No one seems to care anymore.  No, I don't intend to stay at this job.  No, I don't think produce is as important as being a programmer or something, but I do think the job deserves the same respect from the worker.  The company keeps hiring children, still wet behind the ears, and they need their hands held through everything.  Some of them couldn't care less about showing up for work and sometimes leave us to do their share of the work.  And they get away with it because they are unionized.  (Don't get me wrong, I like our union cause they keep getting our wages raised and the company I work for would very likely treat us even worse without the union... they like to cut costs).  I have a sense of responsibility.  I even had it when I was younger and taught martial arts.  I've stayed late a few times when it was needed to prevent the department from losing a lot of money.  So yeah, since my coworker quit, there is no one to do the close tonight.  They called everyone.  At first I said I'd rather not because this is the middle of the week and I have school, and they tried to find someone else, but they called me back and said there was no one else, so although I really don't want to, I'm going to close the department tonight.  I need the extra money anyway.  I also, in an odd way, enjoy the fact that I am needed.  Kinda makes me feel like I have a purpose.  Again, I got to set my terms so I said I'm out of there half an hour early and they are ok with that.  

I've been wondering, do you, the readers of my blog, enjoy reading it?  Is it like a form of entertainment?  Is it interesting?  I dunno why I was wondering, just curious I guess, but plz feedback!

P.S.
Me having a credit card is a bad thing D:
Especially when I just impulsively buy things I can't afford.
;_;

P.P.S
I remembered that I hadn't been eating much lately, so I was curious and found out I weigh like 6lbs less than a week or 2  ago.  (lol, I got used to checking my weight when I used to train).  *shrugs*

Date: March 2nd, 2007
Mood: the warmth of the sun striking my cheek, loved, bored, creative

Weather
Although the sun is gently caressing my cheek, it is actually quite cold outside.

Shakespeare
This girl sitting next to me has this big book and is currently reading romeo and juliet.  ...that turns me on so much, omfg.

Cleaning
I should take my laptop offline this weekend and give it a good cleaning.  It is expected that the case would get fingerprints and dirt all over it, but the screen is a little dirty too and there is dust and hairs under the keyboard.
Usually, I've just been wiping the dust off the screen, and I don't really get any finger prints on it, but I think a damp cloth would probably do fine.

Work
I work tonight and tomorrow.  The schedule made me happy though, since I'll be done at 9pm tonight.  and tomorrow seems to be a 10 till 5 shift.

Thanks
Seriously, thank you to everyone who has been sticking with me, even when I have been getting emo and acting really selfish.  I really appreciate it.

Blogging
I don't know why I do it.
I don't know if I'm any good at it.
I don't know how many people bother to read it.
But for some reason, I enjoy doing it.  
Also, in a sense, I enjoy having the record of my thoughts.  Sometimes I read back towards the beginning and think about how I've changed and how I've stayed the same.

Art
So yesterday, I uploaded a couple of pictures.  If my creativity holds out long enough, I'll see if I can get a poem or two or maybe even a story up.  And of course, more pictures.  I'm on my way downtown right now, so I'll see if anything is inspiring or pretty.  

Hatred of writing
Well, I''ve always said I hated writing.  Well, I did (and still do).  But it was more a hatred of forced writing.  I'd do well on essays when I had fun and was controversial.  For a guy that hates writing, I certainly do a lot of it!

Hatred of coding
Lol, never thought it would happen, but it did.  I honestly see code as an artform.  There is a certain degree of creativity involved.  But, like writing, when I'm forced to do it, it really stifles my creativity.  Don't get me wrong, I love computers and code.  I just don't like having to submit it for marks :P

Console menu
Sometimes, I wish I could hit tab and open up a console menu.  (Tilde, maybe?)  But in real life.  When the bus was going up the hill, I had a perfect view of the river valley and it would have been nice had I been able to enable no-clipping mode and fly mode.  Then I could have gotten some amazing shots.  

The future
I see social networking and blogging and that sort of thing really taking off soon.  To an insanely large exponential growth that will shock many people.
I want my nanotechnology though.  Then I'll have computers in my body, and wireless, of course.  I'll be able to be connected anywhere.  If I see a beautiful scene, I can record the image directly from my eyes.  
I'm sure there will be downsides, and perhaps the government will attempt to limit or restrict the technologies use in humans, but I WILL have it.  At any cost.  Defiant till the end, rawr.  I've wanted it for years.